A dream made real, celebrate with me!

Its official, after years in the making the dream is real!.

The second of two workshops pictured here, where beautiful women came to be empowered and to experience some amazing shifts in the way that they see themselves inside and out!

I am so humbled and inspired by the participants with their openness and willingness to be vulnerable and courageous at the same time.

Here is some of the feedback from the recent participants;

"This workshop is essential for every woman, especially those who like me have become conditioned for success in the current world. Corporate powerhouse women, this course will allow you to tap into your real power. This is the beginning of a journey!".

Monique, Business relationship Manager & Mother

"Today, first and foremost was a lot of fun! I enjoyed indulging in my femininity within a space that encouraged self-expression."

Carolyn, Naturopath and Model de Jour!

"I gained a deeper understanding of myself and how I have held myself back. A seed that has been planted to explore my femininity on a deeper level".

Melinda, Naturopath & Metaphysician

We began to discover the Sacred Feminine within, became anchored within our Well of Unique Wisdom, connected with our Life's Purpose, sharpened our Raw Materials and Busted & Built new images inside and out.

It was an intense day where all grew in self awareness and consciousness, as well as having some great fun with learning about make-up application too. Good serious fun!!

Who ever said you could'nt be fun and serious at the same time????

The next workshop will be held on Saturday 27th November at The Intuitive Well, Bondi Junction. Invitation coming shortly, any expressions of interest please email me at nicole@insideoutbeauty.com.au.

One final word from Albert Einstein;

"Imagination is more important than knowledge"

Love Light and Beauty,

Nicole

Coming out of 'The Cave'

Today I have decided to throw caution to the wind, yes that wind. It came to me last night sitting in bed awake unable to sleep because of the howling winds and rain pelting upon my south facing bedroom window. It came to me loud and clear, literally! So what is it exactly you ask, that I am throwing to the wind, abandoning such caution?

I want to challenge my fear of being judged. Why? Because it is one of my greatest fears and I want to grow beyond it, I want to ‘bring to light’ those frightened aspects of myself inside, and by doing so eliminating darkness.

So what have I been in the dark about you may ask? Many, many things, in fact I have been in the dark for the last 2 years. It is a time in my life that I refer to as being ‘in the cave’, and also a time which was the most critical time of my spiritual growth where I dealt with everything that I had ever swept under the carpet, or also known as my ‘shadow’.

After the birth of our baby girl last year, I had what is known as Post Natal Depression from a consensus perspective, but spiritually known as The Dark Night of the Soul. A time of deep soul trauma where you are alone, in the dark, feel disconnected from God, facing constant borage of fears and doubts. Not knowing who you are, where you are going or what you are doing, and in my case was accompanied by severe panic attacks or also known as anxiety.

Looking at it from an evolutionary perspective This was the best year of my life, and I absolutely celebrate this time and am totally grateful . I grew exponentially, I cried a river of tears, I put all my anger and pain behind the iron bars at the gym, saw a councillor, refused antidepressants, screamed into pillows and hid from the world.

When I chose to become conscious of the process and saw it as an opportunity for me to grow, that is when the magic began. Why? Because I knew that on some level I had created it, for many years of studying spirituality and metaphysics I had been asking to grow and evolve, so this was it, the making of me.

In the west we have a tendency to run away from such inner pain and turmoil, however in the east they embrace it, that is where I learnt how to deal with my pain. The Buddhist Monks celebrate this time and in fact say that those who are going through a dark night of the soul are lucky. I can speak from experience when I say, that looking at it from a conscious perspective and taking responsibility for what we have created within our own pain, it is the most incredible, magical opportunity. Because from the darkness comes the light. There beyond the shadows, what lies beneath are where the hidden gems reside and they are there waiting, always were and always will be, and that is the grand secret that they don’t want you to know about, because when you awake to the true magnificence of who you truly are, you are less easily controlled. You are empowered.

So now as I step out of my cave, and I have weathered the storm, I stand clear and strong with a vision to share and help others through their own shifts, and the journey from ‘Inside’ to ‘outside’ and back again is the most beautiful unfolding, just like the flower of life. And despite more fears of stepping out more, I have a strength & resolve, I am equipped like never before.

To those of you who are going through it I honour you for your courage.

Love light and Beauty,

Nicole

Life turned Inside Out

Never before have I been so exhausted, worn, stretched and queezed, juggling motherhood, a fast unfolding life purpose and trying to keep up with my husband let alone my girlfriends…. Yet never before have I been more clear, aligned, abundant with ideas, creative, expressive and deeply connected with a real sense of meaning. I feel like ive been pulled inside out, which is kind of a good thing. Like I said at the beginning of the journey that I would use myself as a ‘spiritual gunea pig’. I was always the person who was trying to ‘keep it all together’, or at least appear as if.

The truth is I am just like you and anyone else, and sometimes I think it would be so much easier to go back to sleep, you know like in the Matrix? The blue or the red pill? Yes sometimes I wish I took the blue pill. But mostly I don’t, the pay offs are worth it 100 fold. It’s the most challenging path but yet the most rewarding

one.

The thing that dawns on me is that with this kind of work comes with extra challenges to test your strength, patience, commitment. As a woman I agree it takes resilience, and also a knowing of when to stop giving. Now is a moment for me to stop.

So in this world there are a lot of paradoxes, the deeper meaning behind ‘Inside Out’, this week I have begun to look at things from an inside out perspective, or opposites, like your looking at your life in the mirror. My philosophy and inherent belief is that life unfolds from the inside out, and being someone who used to try and hold it together, or hold it in, the amount of energy it took me to keep it in on top of everything else im juggling reached a threshold and there I reached a tipping point. So in a nutshell the amount of energy it took to hold it in become less than the force behind it which ultimately was the unfolding of my life purpose and Inside Out Beauty, and the birth of my authentic self. Joy Brugh calls it the “Avalanche”. The ‘inside out’ of that situation was that in my effort to hold it all together, it all came unravelling apart along with everything I held onto in my life. What a ride!

For this I am eternally grateful, for getting out of my own way and getting onto my true path. Yet somehow I get the feeling that there is a long way to go and a few quantum leaps to occur, but im prepared.

If you are feeling like this inside I want to hear from you, am I alone in this space? I want to challenge the role that women play in this current day and how you all feel about it? Are you satisfied? Are you fed up?

Love light and beauty

Nicole

The Beauty of Femininity and Surrender

Since the last instalment, it has been quite a journey indeed. This process has taken me twice as long to come to the clarity and awareness of what my next blog is about. I got stuck in trying to make it happen, which of course goes against my intention of this very journey and process of writing about my spiritual quest for growth and change. And that is something which you definitely cannot make happen or force, because of its very nature it IS a force to which we need to surrender and that requires humility.

If you truly intend something , you cant make it happen. You are the instrument that CREATES the intention, and the universe chooses which cords to play, or how it is played out in your life. And if you don’t create or choose an intention consciously, the universe will create something for you to show you.

It is a surrendering which requires faith, trust and patience, so it has been a lesson within a lesson. To have trust in myself that I will know what it is I am to write about. How will I know? When I am crystal clear about it. The moment I realised was whilst watching a young woman being interviewed on DR Phil, who was so beautiful in the way that she was articulating so clearly from feeling and truth in a way beyond her years. Clear truth is timeless and beautiful.

It also requires patience to wait for the right time, or for the moment of clarity and not just do it because I felt I had to do it once a week. I became so hard on myself for not knowing because the first three blogs just happened that way. So as a result I tried to force a blog and began writing about self worth instead but it just wasn’t happening because it wasn’t clear and didn’t flow. Another lesson within a lesson!

So surrendering to the flow in life and to be clear about the truth within you is represented as true beauty when you express that part of you. So how this relates to femininity and being a woman is very relevant because as women we are the most in touch with the cycles of life, in nature and the planets. In fact it is interesting to note that this all happened at the peak time of the full moon, lunar eclipse and shortly before the partial solar eclipse which happens only every 18 years which relates to radical change.

We have become masculine in many ways, by trying to make things happen, our world and society has become that way and so have we as women. What does that mean??? So, yes go out there and make your dreams happen, but be open and aware to the signs if things don’t happen or aren’t working out. My sign was that the internet and my emails were freezed up, yet still I tried to make it happen. (That’s my female chauvinism!)

So where in your life now are you not listening to or paying attention to the signs? What have you repeatedly been trying to do to make it happen but keep coming up against roadblocks? What are the subtle messages behind this and how could you do it differently, or at all????

This is how the great change within our world begins, and it all starts with YOU. Life and beauty unfolds from the inside out. And this relates to both women and men. But as women you have the advantage of naturally having these gifts, that is why the Dali Lama said that “the world will be saved by the western woman”, because we are equipped to make things happen AND have the biological make up to know and be in touch with WHAT to make happen. Both the masculine and the feminine (you will learn more on that at the September workshop).

So what is it that you want to make happen now? How can you be the change that you wish to see in the world?

Secure your place for the 4^th September Inside Out beauty workshop at the Intuitive Well Bondi Junction 12-5pm. 10 places only available with more workshop dates to be released. Invitation coming shortly. Email expressions of interest to nicole@insideoutbeauty.com.au

Until the next instalment along the journey I wish you patience, faith, surrender, clarity and truth.

Love Light and Beauty,

Nicole

Diamonds are a girl's best friend

It is a funny thing that when we are in pain or struggling deeply with our own fears and insecurities, that is when we are more inclined to run for the hills so to speak, or run away from the source of the dilemma, that is outside ourselves. We are very good at distracting ourselves, procrastinating and blaming. True power lies within and beneath this stuff which I will call S.H.I.T.

This week I had my own experience with S.H.I.T, I am always grateful after the experience, why? Its painful at the time but having gone through it, you come to a place and space of reward called clarity. My teacher and mentor affectionately calls it ‘seeing the diamond in the tird’.

A diamond is created through immense pressure and heat over a period of time, and so it is the same with us and our own lives. We are all constantly under pressure of our own issues (S.H.I.T), feeling the heat and after a while we begin to see where we are responsible for our own pain. A diamond is strong, clear and brilliant. In the journey of wallowing in my S.H.I.T this week (ala Miss Piggy), I eventually saw beyond it to find strength within myself, that it was all just a cover up and catalyst to help me to become clear about my truth, and that I am brilliant and strong. I saw the diamond in my tird.

A personal story is that over the years of doing my mastery courses, I have had 3 experiences where I have received the message that I am a crystal. Twice from other people and once during deep meditation where I came out and immediately drew a picture of it. I now keep it to remind me when I forget. So it has become my personal mission in life to keep the crystal clear and clean by mediating, doing yoga/exercise and writing. By doing this I can see my own truth and power so I can shine that light more consciously in my world and help others to do the same, to be their reminder.

Crystals are symmetric and balanced, or represent HARMONY. When we are in harmony with our dreams and purpose, things fall into place. I notice that when I am in harmony with my own truth, and I am feeling good and energized, wherever I go I see lights go out, and there is a synchronicity in my world where people, places and events fall effortlessly into place. Where I am aligned with my truth there is a zone of support, strength and brilliance.

How do we get to that place? First we must realize that there must be discords in order to achieve harmony, so by taking ownership of your S.H.I.T you will be rewarded (no, not the poo bar!) with clarity of your gifts, strengths and brilliance. Just like I was S.H.I.T scared of what people would think of my brilliance.

Q-What is it that you need to be clear about at the moment, really? Q-What are the hidden strengths behind it that you have been hiding, or what pressure have you created in your life that is helping you to be clear of your truth and power? Q-How does this empower you to shine those gifts in your life and show your brilliance?

So the point is to LOVE your shit, BLESS your shit and THANK you shit every day for allowing it to teach you how you have not been the diamond and the light unto yourself.

I will leave you with this final affirmation;

“At the heart of the matter we are all diamonds”

Love light and beauty,

Nicole

Perfection v's Perfectionism

It has been the most incredible week of my life. I had so much resistance to ‘baring my soul’ and revealing whom I truly am all about with the first blog, because I was afraid people will judge me and discover that I am different. But guess what? I AM. It is known as soul calling, grace, reverence, rebirth, LOVE, synchronicity, divine intervention, shift in resonance, celestial alignment, whatever it is, I have found it within me and I am in love with LIFE. It seems that life is in love with me too, 3am blogging after the baby wakes and cant get back to sleep. If this keeps up you will see me with packed on concealer in September.

I am a perfectionist, have always been. But now I’m converted into the perfection camp. Firstly, what is the difference? Perfectionism is this constructed idea that we need to have everything looking or appearing in order, just right. Yet the paradox is that everything is perfect as it is anyway. The truth is that there is an underlying innate order and perfection within everything and everyone. So when I used to spend hours getting ready to go out, trying so hard to co-ordinate every detail, I would get stuck and frustrated within myself because in my mind I could never look good enough or be satisfied with my image. Even to the point of almost just giving up and not going anywhere.

And that is the flaw with perfectionism, it’s a human made contrived idea of image where we are told how to look by someone else. We as women, and men also use this ideal image in the beauty and fashion magazines as a benchmark to aspire to (more on that later).

Yet perfection needs no benchmarks nor standards in order for it to be appreciated, it just is an inherent order of the flow of life. I would naturally gravitate towards colours that make me feel good inside and out, so why wouldn’t I wear them? Fashion and belonging. We have been led away from trusting our own instincts and replaced it with a false sense of ‘fitting in’ and belonging to the consensus. If we fully trusted in ourselves 100% then we would feel a deep sense of belonging. For example, I have never felt such a sense of belonging and trust since beginning this blogging process, I am the happiest, chirpiest and bounciest I have been since childhood. Why? Because I am totally aligned with my dream and purpose. That doesn’t mean im throwing out my wardrobe either! I’m just more conscious about what makes me feel good.

So therein lies the truth about perfection, if you trust in your own instincts about what you should wear because it makes you feel good inside and out according to your mood, its sort of a tailor self made fashion statement, which gives you permission to be more of who you are and allows you to tune in to your authenticity, therefore are more able to shine your own light on the world. And that is the order of perfection, everyone being their unique selves sharing an authentic experience together instead of a forced, and sometimes uncomfortable image that just doesn’t fit. With too many perfectionists together trying to stand out and be different, and act different, but they are all just the same which is ironic. (I used to be one!)

As of today make a commitment to begin dressing in clothes that make you feel good inside and out, whatever works for you. Wear your secret favorite perfume, do your hair and make-up the way you feel. Then do two things;

#1 Begin to notice how you feel.

#2 Notice how you feel about other people noticing you being different (comments on blog welcome!)

It takes so much more energy when we are trying to make something happen that is not in sync with what we are about, when we let go and allow the natural flow of who we are to be expressed there is a perfection, ease and elegance, and that you can not buy or copy.

“When a woman falls in love with the magnificence if who she is inside and out, so does the rest of the world”

Love light and beauty,

Nicole

Inside Out Beauty

Welcome to the journey of Inside Out Beauty, the journey within to authentic beauty and power.

80 days on a spiritual quest of growth, change and discovery from the inside out. Culminating in September for the first Inside Out Beauty workshop to share with you my wisdom and growth. My purpose is to give you the buttons to access your own beauty and discover a new empowered image of you, grounded in your own unique beauty and power. To give you some great make-up tips and tricks that will suit you and your new image.

My journey along this path has taken me through 16 years in the beauty industry as a make-up artist, and 7 years studying metaphysics and spirituality and many more watching beautiful women around me and trying to put my finger on what it is exactly that makes them so beautiful.

We as women are incredibly powerful and magnetic, the Dalia Lama said at a recent peace summit "the world will be saved by the western woman". Do you feel the urge to answer the call of your soul and be a part of this time of monumental change?

Women today are looking for inspiration from other women such as celebrities, artists and prominent women in the public, yet to emulate them is not authentic beauty. We need to look within ourselves.

I am the first to admit, I would buy the same jeans as Jennifer Aniston or do my eye make-up like Angelina Jolie, but I'm not those women, and for as long as I was emulating them I was running away from me.

So what is it really all about? it is about the journey within where I discovered my own authentic power as a woman, to become grounded and clear and to ultimately share from my heart and own experience, which has become my life purpose so its all for you my beauties!

I can't wait to see you at the first Inside Out Beauty workshop on the 4th September, where you will walk away with an authentic new image of you inside and out, discover hidden gems within, and to integrate them into your life in a lasting and powerful way.

Blessings to you all on this journey, and until the next chapter I will leave you with this;

"Live life in the beauty of knowing that you are like a snowflake, utterly unique and rare"

Love light and beauty,

Nicole