Life turned Inside Out

Never before have I been so exhausted, worn, stretched and queezed, juggling motherhood, a fast unfolding life purpose and trying to keep up with my husband let alone my girlfriends…. Yet never before have I been more clear, aligned, abundant with ideas, creative, expressive and deeply connected with a real sense of meaning. I feel like ive been pulled inside out, which is kind of a good thing. Like I said at the beginning of the journey that I would use myself as a ‘spiritual gunea pig’. I was always the person who was trying to ‘keep it all together’, or at least appear as if.

The truth is I am just like you and anyone else, and sometimes I think it would be so much easier to go back to sleep, you know like in the Matrix? The blue or the red pill? Yes sometimes I wish I took the blue pill. But mostly I don’t, the pay offs are worth it 100 fold. It’s the most challenging path but yet the most rewarding

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The thing that dawns on me is that with this kind of work comes with extra challenges to test your strength, patience, commitment. As a woman I agree it takes resilience, and also a knowing of when to stop giving. Now is a moment for me to stop.

So in this world there are a lot of paradoxes, the deeper meaning behind ‘Inside Out’, this week I have begun to look at things from an inside out perspective, or opposites, like your looking at your life in the mirror. My philosophy and inherent belief is that life unfolds from the inside out, and being someone who used to try and hold it together, or hold it in, the amount of energy it took me to keep it in on top of everything else im juggling reached a threshold and there I reached a tipping point. So in a nutshell the amount of energy it took to hold it in become less than the force behind it which ultimately was the unfolding of my life purpose and Inside Out Beauty, and the birth of my authentic self. Joy Brugh calls it the “Avalanche”. The ‘inside out’ of that situation was that in my effort to hold it all together, it all came unravelling apart along with everything I held onto in my life. What a ride!

For this I am eternally grateful, for getting out of my own way and getting onto my true path. Yet somehow I get the feeling that there is a long way to go and a few quantum leaps to occur, but im prepared.

If you are feeling like this inside I want to hear from you, am I alone in this space? I want to challenge the role that women play in this current day and how you all feel about it? Are you satisfied? Are you fed up?

Love light and beauty

Nicole